Monday, June 26, 2006
knock knock...
dazed thr' the whole wk... not even aware of wat's been happening... weird feeling... everything seemed to revolve only around the wkend...
spent more den 12 hrs in town on sat... whiling away on the streets of orchard road with deb, mandy n j... ultra cho bo...
received a news which i'm not sure how i shd term it.... auntie mary diagnosed with cancer n merely waiting for her last breath 2 expire. v odd feeling. went to see her... she was so feeble yet had a sound mind. n she recognised me... by name. i felt so touched... showed dat i've been on her mind all these while. despite the fact dat she was terminally ill n was so drowsy with morphine, she could still ask us to take care... i gave her a hug n a kiss... was so precious... to receive a hug n kiss back. the last time i gave mama a hug n kiss, she was cold from the lack of life. n there wasnt any return.
auntie mary had a kind of serenity in her eyes with a slight fear of not knowing wat to expect but still calm. but could sense her wanting to tell michelle to return home... heartbreaking. to watch someone on the verge of leaving... but i told her i love her. i guess at the end of the journey... we all wanna know we've loved n been loved in returned. does anything else matter? i know i'm gonna miss her dearly... n like all homely peranakan woman, she's gonna leave a void in my tummy... when she's gone... i'm gonna miss home-cooked peranakan cuisine. stilll rem when i got a call from her from the SEA games from bout 2 yrs back when she thot dat jing junhong was me... mish-mashed... hv experiencing a roller-coasting ride of feelings these days. gosh. makes me feel alive... dunno whether i'm glad 2 b so though...
plus the lack of sleep making me feel like i'm floating thr' my days... j gg thr' the phase of talking on the phone till graveyard hours... n he's ultra proud of it. hello! u dun need to wake up early of coz ok lah. kena on fri nite... okie lah... i kaypoh also so talked till 3 plus den need 2 wake up at 6plus... piangz. my eyebags hasnt been this puffy since dunno when... in the end... merely confirmed wat i suspected. chey... nothing much. n saw his fren on sun. dong... not as goodlooking as wat i expected lor. cheyz.
saw 2 movies on sun. realised it's cheaper 2 watch movie on sun at cine den on wkdays lah coz of m1 movie promotion. great! i've decided to make sundays my movie day. n i'm gonna drive 2 town the next time i watch movie in town at nite. end up taking cab all the time, waste money. watched she's the man and almost love. she's the man is so so so so good. seriously good. din expect it to b so. thoroughly had a good laff. worthed every single cent. superb entertainment. great dialogue n acting. so much better den king n the clown lor. to think i chiong 2 town on a wkday nite jux 2 catch it. lose sleep somemore. piangz. watched soccer till 1am at cine last nite also... england was rather disappointing but well... the fried chicken was good. father nagging again. great. cant nag at me so scold russ. bestest... mayb i shd let bren hv him. less torture for him.
uurggh... noisy. no mood 2 write. nuff lah anyway. i need 2 clear my fuzzy head again. shucks.
7:46 PM
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