Saturday, January 13, 2007
knock...
everyday at my clinic... i see many patients spending thousands of dollars n poking themselves so dat they can fulfill their dreams of having their own children... when they're succeed, we spend another 12 weeks worrying and hoping that the pregnancies will stabilise... some of them quit their jobs to rest at home n protect the lives they carry... almost all continue to be pierced regularly to check on their hormones levels... they pop pills to try their very best to sustain the lives in them... den they spend the next 2 trimesters monitoring the growths of the lives inside of them... parents start fretting for their children the moment they learn of their existences... the worrying never stops...
4 weeks after public holidays... many ppl will start calling the clinic to ask if we perform abortions... i try very hard not to sound irritated.... yes, it is their freedom of choice. it is their lives... i've no control over it.... i dun wanna control their lives 2... it jux hurts a great deal... to know dat ppl make such choices. some ppl call n make comments like 'the last time...' it simply shows that they havent learnt their lesson... most sound sheepish. if there's nothing wrong. there's no need to sound so...
the love i know is supposed to b patient... not self-seeking... it protects. but the so-called love dat our world proclaims of today hardly echoes the same view. it emphasizes alot on the now, the feeling dat can come so strong and yet is so easily forgotten... the pleasure that is so fleeting yet delightful for dat short moment. i'm always told dat love is all bout the feeling and it can't be unexplained... if u dunno y u love, den wat bout it is worthed loving?
wat differentiates us from animals which go around mating for the sake of propagating? are we like the peacocks which attract mates with colourful and flamboyant appearances... or do we emit a smell dat draws attraction... are we not of a superior species... created in God's likeness... having the breath of God in us... who are given the authority to rule over n take care of God's creation because we have the intellect that God has given us... we'r supposed to have a mind to govern our bodies and cherish them...
i wonder what is still valuable these days... do we realise wat we'r losing when we choose to lose our minds as well...
8:14 PM
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