Friday, September 13, 2013
knock.
apparently, on 27 Jan 2010, I wrote a post with the same title.
I really couldnt remember what it was then that i was hoping to start over... these were my exact words.
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starting over
reclaim the innocence.
it's the end where I begin.
HE writes the script and I improvise too much.
someone reminded me that I am like her. to go my own way and suffer... and refuse to let God help. silly.
how can God be so patient and relentless?
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Coincidentally, this year's IDMC theme was “Starting Over, Rediscovering Discipleship as a Redemptive Journey.”
The outline was based on these phrases:
Starting Over
Breaking Free
Looking Up
Letting Go
Drawing Near
Staying True
Moving On
There are many points in life where we would go through the cycle over and over again. I guess this is a norm of life, to constantly rediscover how we need the redeeming power of God and choosing to start over.
I have been reading through the entire bible again. Currently at the book of 1 Samuel and I decided to go deeper by doing a comparison and contrast of Saul and David by creating a table. It has caused me to re-read and look at these characters in greater detail, which is awesome, since i have not been mugging the Word for eons. Looking forward to the riches and blessings through spending more time delving deeper.
On another note...
Today i met with old friends. Meeting with old friends can bring about different thoughts and emotions. There are some whom you would feel glad that you continue to share a strong bond with; there are some whom have drifted so far, you would not mind if paths did not cross again; there are some whom you wish did not go where they are at now.
I think the third kind of feeling applied tonight.
At this point, there are many who have gone in varying paths in their walks with God. I can sense disappointment with God's people. Afterall, I have been both - the one who disappointed and who has been disappointed. In His mercy and grace, I pray that regardless of how i have failed others and how others have failed me, I continue to hang onto the Faithful One who does not change.
To those who have decided to label the Church as only a building and a human construct of "holy fellowship"... pls dont ever let the imperfect human hinder the perfect work that God could do through His body.
While walking home, I was thinking about the statement that a friend had made about the Church being a human construct. No doubt that this friend has been hurt by her encounters and experience. Relating the Church to a family where everyone has his/her quirks, I was trying to imagine families who gather every weekend, granny, grand-dad, uncles, aunties, cousins and all.
Not everyone agrees with one another but the families gather week after week, festival after festival, because they care about the patriarch and the matriarch. It is out of the respect for the head of the family that everyone congregates because everyone understands that the ones who hurt the greatest if anyone is absent, are the granny and grand-dad who have slogged their entire lives to provide for and keep the family together.
Oh Lord, may we see You for who You are and not what Your fallen people have made You to be.
12:00 AM
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